Years ago I wrote a dissertation about young adult fiction and theology. Why? I don't know. It was fun. Is it fun to read? Uh. Debatable.
But should you want to read it, here it is.
Should you think to peruse the whole thing, you might want to consider taking up bird watching. Because apparently you have a lot of free time and it could spent learning about birds. Fascinating creatures, those little guys. Dissertations? Particularly my dissertation? Less fascinating.
Monday, February 29, 2016
Thursday, February 25, 2016
Oh Man, I spent a lot of Time on This
In the interest of content, I have delved back into the dark recesses of Things I Wrote in Graduate School. That is to say, things I wrote in either my first or second graduate degree. In my defense, I wasn't studying writing. Don't blame Vermont for this. Blame the Methodists.
Here is a good example of what I spent a lot of time doing back in the day. Now I just enjoy books for their own sake. It's a better life.
If you get to the end, let me know. I'll owe you a cookie. And probably a drink or four.
Here is a good example of what I spent a lot of time doing back in the day. Now I just enjoy books for their own sake. It's a better life.
If you get to the end, let me know. I'll owe you a cookie. And probably a drink or four.
When asked whether the world needed
more Christian writers, C.S. Lewis replied, “No. We need more writers who are Christian.” This tongue-in-cheek statement belies a
fundamental tension in the relationship between theology and literature (or
theology and much of popular culture). Lewis
points out that a work’s theological value does not necessarily stem from its
creator’s explicit intentions. He
succinctly uncovers a difficult question:
What makes a work theologically valuable to a Christian reader? Or, in terms of popular fiction, what gives
certain books more overall theological
value than others? Can such
determinations even be made? I will
argue here that they can. First, I will
explore the ways in which theology are communicated (whether it be
intentionally or unintentionally, explicitly or implicitly) through literature.
Secondly, I will borrow wisdom from the “secular” fields of literary analysis
or the analysis of popular culture and use them as dialogue partners in a
conversation between theology and literature to determine a work’s theological
value. I hope to demonstrate that
literature (especially popular fiction) is a field in which theological inquiry
is necessary and fruitful.
Perhaps
the best way to start exploring theology in literature is to look at works that
make no attempt to disguise their theological intents. Such books borrow figures, places, sacred
“objects,” and themes from religious traditions and use them as devices around
which new plots are formed. In this way,
authors seek to either make old stories new, reframing them in ways that let
modern audiences understand their impact afresh, or they wish to add on to
where ancient texts may have “left off.”
One
such example of this use of (specifically Christian) theology in literature is
the phenomenally successful Left Behind
series. In this fourteen-book series,
authors Jerry Jenkins and Tim LaHaye share their vision of what the Book of
Revelation would look like if it played out in the 21st
century. I would argue that there is
little doubt these sorts of books, those written by Lewis’ disparaged
“Christian writers,” mean to be explicit in their theology. But what does this mean? What are they doing in being “theological” in
the first place? James Nieman gives a
useful working definition of what theology as whole seeks to do in his article Attending Locally: Theologies in
Congregations. He says theology
involves ultimate claims that offer support, renew traditions, sponsor
institutions and produce impact (that is, the ideas seek to bring about some
concrete change in the world). This is
what Tim LaHaye and Jerry Jenkins are trying to do through their books. They make ultimate truth claims: there is a God, the Bible is the inerrant
word of that God, and that when all that is prophesied therein comes to pass, and
people living today could endure the consequences. The books reassert the importance of the
Christian tradition, especially those parts of it that emphasize repentance and
literally following the Bible’s commands.
The Left Behind series seeks
to build upon the traditional Christian Church (a specific definition of which
would come from Tim LaHaye, as he is a minister himself) and wants to impact
people so that they become (literally) God-fearing Christians.
There are two
other ways in which a book can make ultimate truth claims that offer support,
renew traditions and impact the world (but usually to a lesser extent, support
institutions). Literature of this kind
communicates an author’s own theological vision through intentionally
allegorical story or a seemingly non-theological story that asks the reader to
consider questions concerned with ultimate truth. C.S. Lewis is a prime example of an author of
this type. Many scholars argue that his Chronicles of Narnia series was a
blatantly Christian allegory, but Lewis himself did not see the books this
way. Rather, he wanted to write about a
world that was created perfect (as he felt all worlds were, since they were
created by the God he knew through the Christian tradition) but then fell. Narnia was not Earth, it was not meant to
“represent” Earth. Rather, it was
another world entirely that shared the characteristic of being populated with
beings with free-will. Humans (from
Earth) ushered in the “fall” from perfection, but so too did they help restore
peace and balance. Aslan, the Savior of
Narnia, was not an allegory for Jesus per se.
Rather, Lewis wanted to create an entirely different Savior, because an
entirely different world would require such.
Lewis was not trying to disguise the Christian story. Rather, he was trying to creatively explore
themes of the fall, sin, grace, redemption, and the question of, “Who is God?”
in a fictional world.
Lewis explored
similar themes in other works like The Screwtape
Letters, Till We Have Faces, The Great Divorce and his Space trilogy. Lewis’ explicit intention to explore
Christian theological themes, however, is not unlike other author’s implicit
theological questions to readers. I think
any writer who asks a reader to question to what is ultimate in creation, what
is true about the world, how humans should treat each other and creation, what
norms of authority shape how people live their lives, are doing something
theological in their work. One does not
have to have characters who are savior figures, devils, saints or angels to
challenge readers’ worldviews. Just look
at all of the books Oprah Winfrey picks for her powerful book club segments on
her show, for example. From Maya Angelou
to Elie Wiesel, from William Faulkner to Gabriel Garcia Marquez, Oprah picks
books that she feels will change how people view themselves and the world
around them. She wants literature that
will connect her loyal following with ultimate truth claims that offer support,
renew or create new traditions, sponsor institutions (in this case, ones
offered in the consumer marketplace) and offer impact (as Oprah’s “Angel
Network” motto says: “Use Your Life!”).
It is not
difficult to demonstrate that there is (and has been) theology in popular
literature since the first scribe put stylus to tablet. What would the Psalms and Gospels be, if they
were not also appealing poetry and prose?
However, proving this or even
establishing the different ways in which theological themes are used in such
works is not enough. We must go further
to determine how a person concerned with theology’s use in written examples of
popular culture can find the theological
value in a given work? After all, should
the Left Behind series be equated the
same theological merit as Augustine’s Confessions? Are Oprah’s book caucuses the new Councils
determining a post-Biblical canon? Who
is to say that secular society is not searching for some new written works with which to shape its core values? In answering these questions, it is useful to
turn to the fields of literary and cultural analysis.
Bruce David Forbes
and Jeffrey H. Mahan have edited several books about religion and popular
culture. They designate four ways in
which one can view theology: theology in popular culture, popular culture in theology, popular culture as religion, and popular culture and
theology in dialogue. We can extend these categories and substitute
the word "literature" for "popular culture" here. The first step in theologically analyzing a
literary work, then, is to decide into which category a work might fall. I would classify the Left Behind series as popular culture as religion (just check out
Tim LaHaye's web site), whereas Oprah's book club is theology in popular
culture (though Oprah's sway over the masses could give LaHaye a run for his
copious amounts of money). Being able to
put a book into one of these categories is in some way proving its theological
importance. For a book to be a part of
popular culture it must be, after all, popular.
Even if the effects are subtle, the work is nonetheless affecting real
change in the world. This thus falls
under Nieman's definition of what makes something "theological" in
the first place.
Further
methodologies applied to literature by cultural analysis are diverse, but nonetheless
have common bonds useful for the discussion here. Feminist literary theory, for example, would
have much to say about Left Behind in
concert with theology. One of the main
tenants of feminist literary, especially in the work of scholars Maggie Humm
and Mary Eagleton, is demonstrating the tendency of authors to show women as
the “other,” and as dangerous extensions of untamable nature. The Left
Behind series is quick to establish its premise that the “natural” state of
the world is fallen. I believe Humm and
Eagleton would argue that all of the female characters are treated as an
extension of this natural, fallen world.
Women in Left Behind are cast into opposing
categories—life-giver or the barren destroyer, virgin or whore. Men, on the other hand, are the complex beings
created in God’s image, using their free-will first in thought, then action. Women are captive to sin like a volcano
is—they erupt to one inevitable, unfortunate result simply because that is how
they were created. Men can think and can
therefore be sinners saviors. In the analysis
the narrative, feminist literary critique would point out the flaws in painting
women in such a negative, unrealistic light.
After all, humans are rarely all demonic or saintly. If this view of women is intended as a theological one (which it is, if we continue
to use Neiman argument that such a view tries to offer support, renew
traditions, sponsor institutions and produce impact), it is a dangerous view—theological
or secular—in relation to women (and the world!) indeed.
Literary criticism
does not just help point out flawed theological thinking in works of fiction,
however. On the contrary, giving a text
a “deep read,” can often uncover subtle spiritual suggestions that might have
otherwise gone unnoticed. Postmodern
literary criticism is a good example of this, especially because it tries to
challenge the distinction between high and low culture and dissect texts that
try to blend to the two. Oprah Winfrey’s
book club regularly features books selections ranging from Bill Cosby to Leo
Tolstoy; she practically is a
postmodern literary theorist by meshing these choices into once “curriculum”
for her viewers. All of Oprah’s book
selections seek to explore the “loss of the real,” a term coined by theorist
Jean Baudrillard. Baudrillard shows how
modern words take signs to represent reality, distort that reality, shows that
there might not be a reality below
for the signs to represent and then show signs bear no resemblance to anything
actually “real” at all. Oprah believes
this; her show tries to empower people to make their own reality. She wants to demonstrate that people have
“real” spirits and there are “real” things in the world that can direct this
spirit towards good (or even God). A
postmodern literary analysis of (I would argue) all or Oprah’s book club suggestions would show that Oprah picks
books authors who tell of characters who travel through Baudrillard’s four
stages, but who then reconstruct their reality as the conclusion. Oprah’s authors reiterate the postmodern
dictum that all reality is contextual (or that there is no “reality” per se),
but they then make the theological claim that “signs” (like the Church, for
instance) can be re-imagined to still offer support, renew traditions, sponsor
institutions and produce impact.
Ultimately, it
could be argued that none of this matters; maybe a book is written just to
entertain or to tell a story that is not meant to be theological. Still, an author never knows what a reader
will get from his or her book. So, any
book can be critiqued from a theological standpoint (though I will admit that
not all should). At the same time, a
book can stand on its own in a reader's mind and challenge the quiet
theological assumptions of a given religious institutions. Books can bring down empires. Books can save lives. And I believe some writings may be the
inspired Word of God. Thus, the
relationship between theology and literature may remain an uneasy one, but one
with more power and potential than perhaps any other area of culture.
Monday, February 22, 2016
Don't Just Change Your Dorm. Change Your Life.
Having worked in residence life for the better part of the last twenty years, I have seen a lot of people unable to peacefully share a room. Back at one of my former institutions of higher learning, one had to fill out a "room change form" to continue dysfunctional patterns of human relations in a slightly different setting start afresh. But I say, why stop there?
Friday, February 19, 2016
Servant Girl
I dug into the
archives from about a decade ago for this one. I started this novel and got about fifty pages into it, but then shiny objects or something must have distracted me. The story here contains snippets from my attempt at a re-telling of an incident from the Hebrew
Scriptures found in 2 Kings 5:1-14.
Naaman, commander of the Army of Aram, was a “great man in high favor
with his master because by him the Lord had given victory.” Despite his prestige, wealth, and natural
skill as a commander, the equalizing force of leprosy leveled him. No one could help the mighty warrior with his
affliction. No one, that is, until, “a
young servant girl captive from the land of Israel,” who served Naaman’s wife,
approached her mistress and told her about Elisha. Elisha was a prophet of the God of Israel,
and was rumored to hold the power of the only One who could give what Naaman
sought. Eventually, Elisha instructed
Naaman to wash in the Jordan River; Naaman complied and was healed. In the Bible, the men are described in
detail. The women, including the servant
girl, are unnamed.
* * *
Eliana crouched in
the grove of olive trees, waiting. She
stealthily crawled from tree trunk to tree trunk, hoping the lengthening
shadows of twilight would hide her completely.
She silently cursed her skirt for rustling the short, stubby grass. Silence was key to her mission. Sensing her prey approaching, the lioness
pounced.
“Bah!” she yelled, jumping on to her brother
Jesse’s back and pulling him to the ground.
Jesse screamed like their little sister Chedva and dropped the basket of
olives he was carrying. Eliana rolled
onto her back and laughed until she hiccupped.
Jesse picked up a handful of the scattered olives and pelted her head,
but it only made her laugh harder. Even
after Jesse dragged Eliana to her feet and made her help him pick up all the
olives, she was still giggling.
“Eli,
I’d be careful. Brave girls marry ugly
old men,” said Jesse.
“A
girl doesn’t have to be brave to scare you.”
“Well,
a snake in your bed doesn’t have to be brave to scare you either.”
“Mother
would have your hide!”
“Maybe. But remember—I know where you sleep.”
Eliana
laughed again. She knew Jesse might be
good as his word when it came to snakes in one’s bed. She also knew that snakes rarely stayed where
you put them and if it ended up under Chedva’s blanket, Jesse would have extra
chores until he married (and possibly until he gave their parents a third
grandson).
“Shhhh. Stop,” Jesse said suddenly. He grabbed Eliana’s arm and pulled her behind
a tree at the end of the grove.
“Oh
stop it. I’m sorry about scaring
you.” Eliana wrestled out of Jesse’s
grip.
“No! Hush.
Listen.” Jesse’s whisper came out
thick, worried. Eliana strained her ears
against the darkness. On top of the
gentle evening breeze, there came a faint noise like a horn’s call. Heavy, ominous sounds reverberated off of far
off walls.
“What
is that?” Eliana asked.
“They’re
coming again. Come, we must warn
father!” Jesse dropped his basket and
held Eliana’s hand as they ran.
* * *
The men marched by
shoulder-to-shoulder, wearing hard plates on their chest and funny hats on
their heads. Eli watched their feet move
simultaneously, in perfect synch. There
were eight men across in a line, but when you looked at their feet, you could
see only a singular pair of legs moving in rhythm. Eli huddled closer to Jesse and gripped
Chedva's shoulders. All three of them
were standing behind their mother. Their
father had been called away to stand with the other dads and older brothers
across the road. Eli strained her neck
to see, but all she could see was the snaking line of the strange men who moved
together.
Suddenly, the
soldiers stopped. There was a break in
their formation. A man in more richly
colored clothes stood out in a line by himself.
"Hear me!" The man screamed.
"This land belongs to the king of Aram."
"Mama,"
whispered Chedva. "Mama, where is
daddy?"
"Shhhhh,"
her mother scolded.
"You here
have been given the honor of serving our King.
Bow before his loyal servants, your protectors!" The man's voice boomed off of the soldier's bodies. Eli thought it seemed to shake the ground
itself. There was nervous twittering
amongst the women and children. Bow? To these men?
The ones who marched through their peaceful village? It had been only a few days since the
soldiers had arrived this time, but the mood of the whole village had
changed. Before you could only hear
animals rustling in the grass and trees.
Now there were distant cries and screams.
"I said
bow!" The man's face took on a
horrible red shade. He was growing
angry--Eli could tell, but she did not know why. Around her, women began to wearily sink to
the ground. The children followed their
mothers. Eli remained standing as long
as she could, to see if she could see her father. Fortunately, he was standing right in the
break in the shoulders. Eli smiled and
almost waved, but her mother pulled her down to the ground.
"Ooph,"
Eli grunted. She glared at her mother
and rubbed her hands. She lifted her
head up high and again saw her papa. She
was very far away, but Eli thought he had a very strange look on his face. His eyes and nose were red, and his beard
glistened like it was wet. She tried to
smile at him, to let him know it was all right.
"I can be strong like mama," thought Eli.
"Now servants
of the King of Aram!" Boomed the man.
"Some of you are so fortunate as to come back home with
us." Mama gasped. Eli wondered if the man would take papa to be
a soldier. He was still young and good
shape. But the man turned to face the
women and children. He pointed to a few
of the soldiers. "Pick strong
ones."
The soldiers
strode toward the huddled, frightened group.
Eli's mother pushed Chedva out of sight behind her and gripped Eli and
Jesse to her sides. Still the soldiers
came.
* * *
Eliana
shivered against the darkness. Nights
got colder here than they did at home, and Eli did not have her mother’s woven
blankets or her sister to keep her warm.
She curled her legs up to her chest and gripped her knees so hard her
knuckles turned white. The only thing warm
about this restless place were the tears rolling down her cheeks. Eli heard soft groans coming from others in
the small room and wondered if their dreams made them fight sleep as well. Eli had lost track of how long it had been
since she’d been brought to this awful place up north. Thoughts of her mother’s wails, her father’s
helpless please to take him instead, her sister and brother’s stony silence
from that horrible day still tumbled through her mind nonstop. She wondered if the large men with terrible
looking weapons had taken anyone else she knew.
She wondered why she had been
the one plucked from the frightened mass.
She wondered if she’d only know the hard, scary places in the world from
now on.
The
next day dawned with a harsh glow. Eli
had somehow managed to drift off into a dreamless sleep for a few hours, but
now, she hurried with the dozen other women to tidy their sleeping room. Soon, they would begin their day in service
to the army. Suddenly, the door swung
open and two men came in. The women
froze, the men’s hungry gaze turning them into statues.
“You,”
said one of the men, pointing to a young woman who looked to be several months
pregnant. He turned and surveyed the
rest of the dirty, frightened group. Eli
silently whispered prayers that the men ignore her, to the God her mother
promised was always listening. As if
hearing the thoughts in Eli’s head, the soldier swung and stared directly at
her. “And you.” As the men pushed Eli and the pregnant girl
out into the blinding sun, Eli kept praying.
* * *
Nehama
groaned and arched her back as her body spasmed in pain. Eliana shifted the rolled up cloths to try to
make her more comfortable. A breeze
rustled the tent flaps and made the candles flicker. Dim shadows danced all around.
"Eli,"
Nehama said. Eli slid closer and put her
hand on her friend's forehead.
"Shhhhh,"
she whispered. "It will be all
right."
Just
then, Eve the midwife and two other servant women came into the tent where
Eliana was sure she was unsuccessfully trying to help Nehama.
"Stand
back, young one," Eve said to Eli.
"No!"
screamed Nehama, her body shaking again.
Eve
paused a moment but then pushed Eliana gently to the side. "You can stay close," she
said. "But you must let me
work." Eli nodded. She crawled on her hands and knees and took
Nehama's head on her lap. She stroked
her hair and shoulders. Nehama looked up
into Eli's eyes and Eli tried to look much braver than she felt. The midwife pushed on Nehama's belly and then
took her thighs into her large, thick hands.
Eve looked up, "How long has she been like this?"
"Since
it was light out. Around midday she fell
to the ground because it hurt to stand.
I was allowed to stay with her here and someone went to find you. It is dark now, so it must have been
hours." Eve nodded and
frowned. Eli couldn't tell if this was
because of what she had said or because of something else. Eve turned to the other women. "It is time."
Sarai
and Rebeccah, the servant women, each took one of Nehama's legs. The women's faces were kind and they did not
look scared. Eli wondered if they had
birthed children of their own. Maybe
they had just helped deliver them.
"Child," Eve said firmly.
Eli looked up. "Now we
push." Nehama closed her eyes and
screamed as the two women leaned into her feet.
Eli shook and tears rolled down her face involuntarily.
"Child,
your screaming will wear you out. Use
your breath to push out the baby.
Breathe in Ruah, breathe out
your child." Nehama opened her eyes
and looked at Eli.
"You
can do it," Eli said, looking down at her friend.
"I
can't," Nehama whimpered.
"Yes
you can," Eli said. "You are the strongest of all of
us. You carried this baby every day
through all of our work. Even when your
feet were swollen you wouldn't slow down.
You're a mother now. My
grandmother used to say that mother's are the strongest of all God's
creatures." Nehama closed her eyes
and nodded. She reached her arms above
her head. Eli clasped them to her
chest.
"Get
ready child," Eve said.
"Remember Ruah." Eli held tightly to Nehama's hands. She drew in her breath and willed any
strength she had to pass through her body in Nehama's. "Our tears are our prayers, God,"
Eli prayed. "Hear each
one."
This
time the women all pushed and breathed as one.
Nehama let out her breath and yelled in pain, but it was drawn out with
effort and control. "Again,"
Eve commanded. Over and over they
worked, until Eli felt light headed from the effort. She wondered how anyone did this, how the
human race didn't just quit multiplying from the sheer impossibility of the
task.
Finally,
what seemed like years later (but was probably more like hours), a new sound
pierced the air. A high, fragile cry
flew up to heaven, to signal its arrival onto earth. Eve held up the shrieking creature. It looked shriveled and purple by the
candlelight. The midwife stuck her
finger down its throat while the other two women helped deliver the
afterbirth. Nehama, too exhausted to
scream, just propped up her head to see the baby. "It's a boy," said Eve,
smiling. Eliana heart leapt at the
news. She was still sitting with
Nehana's head in her lap and had long ago lost the feeling her in legs from
staying there so long. But it didn't
matter. Because Nehama had a son.
"Can
I hold him?" Nehama asked. Eve paused.
She looked at the baby a moment with a sad, complicated look on her
face.
"It
would be better if you didn't, little one.
You need to rest."
"Please. He's mine.
He's all I have. He . . ." She was also too tired to cry.
"Please,
Eve. She has the rest of the night for
sleep." Eli said. Finally Eve nodded. Eli slid forward and helped prop Nehama up a
little. Eve placed the bundle in
Nehama's arms. Nehama ran her finger
along the baby's soft, pink check.
"He's
perfect," she whispered. Her son,
who had been crying since his entrance into the world, grew quiet. Nehama began humming a song and kept stroking
the baby's face. Eli leaned over her
shoulder to get a better look at him. Nehama turned and kissed her on her cheek.
"I want to name him Josiah. After
my father. It is a good, strong
name."
Just
then, a horn sounded outside the ten.
The women were startled and the baby woke up and screamed again. Eve and the women who had been cleaning
Nehama and straightening up the tent, got up and went outside to see what was
going on. Voices carried on the night's
breeze, which had turned chilly. Eli
moved and pushed cloths under Nehama's back.
She stumbled when she tried to get up, pins and needles sticking her
stiff legs. She got a blanket and
covered Nehama and the baby. The voices
grew louder outside, angrier. But even
though she crept back over to the tent's flap, she couldn't make out what they
were saying.
Nehama
hummed Josiah back to sleep. She shifted
until she was lying down and feel asleep as well. Eli, who could sense something was wrong
outside, remained standing. The candles flickered and went out.
Soon
Eve came back in the tent. Sarai and
Rebeccah stood holding the entrance open, each holding a torch. Eve kneeled down and took the sleeping
Josiah.
"Where
are you taking him?" Eli whispered urgently. "Shouldn't you tell Nehama?"
"She
needs to rest," Eve whispered back.
"She
can rest with him."
"No,
child." Shadows shifted outside the
tent.
"Move,
old woman," a man's voice said from outside. "We haven't got all night."
"Surely,"
another voice said, "You wouldn't want us to seek sport with you." Harsh chuckles erupted. Nehama stirred.
"What
. . ." she started to say.
"Shhhhh. Hush." Eve said. She left the tent with the baby.
"Here
he is. Ten fingers, ten toes."
Eli
rushed to get out of the tent. Sarai and
Rebeccah put there hands out to stop her.
"Where's
my son?" Nehama called from the ground.
"Don't
worry, mouse," said the man's voice.
"He is going to live in a palace far grander than this.” Again the laughter. The shadows moved away as footsteps brushed
away into the darkness.
"What's
going on?" Nehama asked, sitting
up. "Where are they taking my son?" With each word, Nehama's voice grew more
desperate.
"Please
child," Eve said firmly.
"Please. Don't make a
fuss. You know he's a baby of a
soldier."
"What?"
Nehama screamed. "The man who did
this . . . he is no longer here. He went
away with his men. He did not want to
marry me. He is no father. He just . .
." her voice broke. "He . .
." Nehama choked as sobs came up
from deep inside her chest. She put her
head in her hands and wailed.
"Shhhh,"
Eve tried to soothe her. "Don't let
them hear you, child. You son will have
a better life. He will live free! It is better this way."
Eli
dropped to the ground. She curled
Nehama's body, which was still bleeding from the birth, into her arms. "How can it," her own voice
quivered with tears, "be better . . . if he's . . . not here with
us?" Nehama drew her breathe in
sharply and wailed.
"It's
what it is, child." Said Eve. "God sees all things. God will look after the baby."
Eli
buried her face in Nehama's shoulder.
She cried with her friend. She
tried to pray that God look after them, too.
But she found she had nothing to say.
* * *
Master
Naaman had not been doing well for several weeks. Everyone in his household knew this,
especially the servants who had to clean his sores and change his bed
dressings. It was because of this a
thought had been nagging Eli for days, but she didn’t dare speak it. One morning, as she helped Nehama scrub their
mistress’s basin, she wondered aloud, “Do you think the master knows of
Elisha?”
Nehama
did not stop scrubbing. “No, why would
he? His armies don’t stay in the land
long enough to chat with the people, now do they?” She chuckled.
“I
don’t know. The cooking in my village
was so good, they wanted to take brides and live with our families! They loved our wine so much, we had to coax
them back to their king!” Eliana and
Nehama laughed. But Eli quickly turned
somber again. “I think I should tell
them.”
“Tell
who what?”
“Tell
the master—or at least the mistress, that we know someone who can cure the
sickness.”
“You’d
be whipped for talking to the mistress!
And who knows what they’d do to us if Elisha didn’t help . . .” she
trailed off. She and Eli scrubbed in
silence. Eliana wondered what she should
do. She wished for the thousandth time
since she’d been brought here that she had her father’s courage, or her
mother’s strength. But she didn’t. Worse, her parents were worlds away from
helping her now.
* * *
Eliana crept
slowly, quietly down the hall. The Commander’s
home was a huge building, the biggest Eli had ever seen in her life. She could dawdle in its nooks and crannies
forever, though she never dared before.
Her job was to do her work, be invisible, and get out as quickly as
possible. To attract attention was to
invite unfortunate consequences. Today,
however, was different.
The
room where the commander’s wife spent most of her day lay at the end of Eli’s
trek. She’d have to pass through the
carved wooden door with a curved handle.
The door, that Eli had always thought was so beautiful, today loomed
large, heavy. Eli carried with her soft
bedclothes to deliver to the chamber.
Eli approached her feet growing heavier with ever step. She stood stock still just outside it. Somehow, with a will summoned from places
she’d never recognized until now, she lifted her arms and gently tapped several
times.
“Come,”
said a voice from within. Eli opened the
door, kept her head down, and set the sheets down next to the bed. She lifted her eyes a fraction of an inch up
and saw that the mistress was alone, standing at the open window looking
out. Eli heard the mistress sigh. Eli drew in her breath and took a step
forward. The mistress turned. Eli turned just as quickly, head down,
towards the door. She put her hand on
the ornate handle and was just to push through when she stopped. She drew her breath in again and turned. She raised her head up. The mistress was looking right at her.
“Forgive
me, mistress” Eli said. “I know that I
will be punished for forgetting my place.”
The mistress said nothing, only stared at Eli, her mouth hanging open
slightly. “But I think I know someone
who can help master Naaman.”
The
mistress remained silently staring. Eli
had never gotten a good look at her before this. She noticed that the mistress wasn’t very old
herself. Eli had just turned 13; she
doubted that the mistress was more than a few years older than that.
“What?”
the mistress said.
“Ma’am,
please.” Eli said. “Where I come from,
among my people, there are prophets. Men
to whom the God of Israel speaks directly.
There is one, called Elisha, whom God favors. If master Naaman would go to him, Elisha
could cure him. I know it.”
Eli
looked back down at the floor. She had
grown used to being invisible. She
didn’t know how to deal with being the center of attention.
“Girl,”
said the mistress slowly. “Do you know
that I could have you whipped for talking to me? Or do anything I like to you?”
“Yes
mistress.”
“And
still you tell me this?”
“Yes,”
Eli said weakly. She looked up, fighting
back tears.
The
mistress sunk onto a chair. She stared
out into space for a long time. Eli
waited, unable to move. Finally, the
mistress rose.
“We’d
only been married a few months when he became ill,” she smiled sadly. “But in those months I knew I could love only
him.” She walked to Eli and took her
chin in her hands. “And you believe your
prophet will heal my husband.”
“Yes
mistress.” Eli inhaled the mistress’
sweet perfume. It’s gentle warmth
reminded Eli of the way her grandmother smelled. She wanted to stay there and breathe it in
forever.
“Well,
then. Either you are a very brave or a
very foolish girl.” The mistress let go
of Eli’s chin. “Let us both hope you are
the former.” The mistress opened her
chamber door. “Go now. Pray that your Elisha is who he say he is.”
Eli
bowed and followed the queen out of the room.
She returned to the servants tents where Nehama was waiting. “Now what?” Nehama asked.
“I
don’t know,” said Eli.
* * *
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